Sunday, July 12, 2009
My physical self and my spiritual self are very closely connected. I find most of my spiritual experiences happen out on the road or on the bike or in the pool. When I am alone, in my head and with only my thoughts.
I've been stewing and stewing about 21 seconds for over 24 hours now. What could I have done different? Most races, I can look back and say, nothing. I couldn't have done anything different. I did the best I could and gave it my all.
I couldn't this time. My body hurt and I let it slow me down. I let outside influences determine my outcome. I let physical elements affect my pace, my stride and my attitude.
Life is full of pain. Pain of death, divorce, disappointment, financial crisis, wayward children, health problems.....you name the pain, life has it. And we all experience the pain or even many pains at one time or another. Or even at the same freaking time!
Do we let those pains affect our life performance and perhaps ultimately our outcome? It took me until over the half way mark to have that "talk" in my head and change my pace. I cannot afford in this life to wait until over the halfway mark to decide that the pains of life aren't going to affect my performance. I have to decide that now.
When the knees hurt, and the hips ache, and the feet are screaming for relief, is exactly when I have to "take it up a notch" and let myself overcome those physical set backs. When I have to remind myself that really, my mind is stronger than my body and I can overtake the physical side.
When the pains of life hit us hard and we start slowing our pace, maybe doubting our abilities, or even questioning our faith, that is the time to remind ourselves that our spirits are stronger than those outside elements. That we cannot give into those hurts, because it might just ultimately affect our spiritual outcome.
Yesterday, I fell 21 seconds short of placing. Thank heavens it's just a race. In the grand scheme of things, I don't want to fall short of achieving my utmost desired goal. Of gaining all that I am promised of receiving as long as I keep pace, hang in there and don't give in to the pains of life.