Monday, January 11, 2010
Words, Goals and Resolutions - Oh My!
Seems that everyone in the blogworld, at least the cool kids, are choosing a word for the year.
I've thought about it. Thought long and hard. My head hurts from thinking. It's not a usual practice of mine.
Seems that lot's have been posting their New Years resolutions or goals or whatever you want to call them. I did that last year. I sucked. I didn't do them. I failed.
I've been commenting on others great posts about the upcoming year, that I wasn't going to do anything therefore, not set myself up for sure failure. And sure it would be. 'Cause that is how I roll.
Instead, after an amazing day yesterday (post to come with photos), that got me to thinking a little deeper than I have for some time, I realized that while I am not going to set goals, make resolutions or live by a word of the year, I am going to let a few things go in my life.
Getting rid of or letting something go seems a heck of a lot easier than trying to DO or BE something. And I'm all for the easy route.
Besides, Splenda already made a comment to me the other day that he was going to refuse to allow a certain element in his life, so I am technically highjacking his good idea.
Seems simple doesn't it? I guess if you're Guy Smiley on Sesame Street it might be.
For me? Well.... in general, I am very happy person! Love to be silly, have fun and definitely up for any kind of social partying of any kind. However, the last several years have been some doozies. So much so, that if I were to write it all down, no one would even believe me. Just telling and/or explaining it all to someone who doesn't know, makes it all sound so stupid and made up.
I think the experiences have jaded me in a way that I don't care for. I have become cynical. Sure, I am still sarcastic and I'm okay with that to a point, but the hardened cynic that has set up camp is not.
The past several years has served so much heartbreak and disappointment that instead of seeing and believing the best in others, I've fallen into the trap of expecting the worst. Me no likey that.
So, I'm dumping you Mr. Negativity. Yeah, you heard me. It might be a longer break up than I normally like, only because habits are hard to break, but I don't want to be coupled with you anymore. You're bringing me down. You're cramping my style. Well, no more. I'm not even going to part on good terms and say "let's still be friends K?" Nope. We're over, we're through. Kaput.
So what does this mean for the M-Cat? It means that there will be people and things that will just need to go. Rude, abrasive, offensive, gossipy, belittling - they all hang out with Mr Negativity, so I am going to have to lose that whole circle of friends too.
Some may say....no way can you do this girl. You ARE the embodiment of sarcasm, mocking and humor at other's expense. I know right? But I gotta make the break before I end up a withered, old, bitter woman. So far, I've gotten withered and old down, but I really don't want to get to bitter.
And so, Mr Negativity, don't let the door hit you on the a** on the way out. (Could you also take the dude called Mr Going-to-the-ER-and-almost-dying with you? I am SO over him too)
**PS - I reserve the right to retain some level of sarcasm, mock, point fingers and belittle myself. It's how I get through my day. If I laugh at myself first, then no one else needs to. Right?