Second is my family and friends. A warm spring day eating lunch in the backyard with friends, dinner with family and as always - movie night.
Favorite is getting pictures of the girl I love most of all
Yesterday I gave my little cooper a nice deep clean that it hasn't had in over 9 months or so. As I was vacuuming out the back seat and cleaning things down, I came across some remnants of Chloee. A little green ball that she loved to carry around. Some sticky residue of something spilled under where her car seat was. Finger prints on the window.
For a brief moment I was absolutely homesick for her. I think this time of year the memories are so fresh. Taking her to school in the sunny warm mornings, passing "our" ducks on the way, chattering about school and what the plans were for after. All little delightful pieces of her life that I was blessed to be a part of while her Daddy finished up all his training and schooling.
I picture her now, in her bedroom full of pillow pets, Hello Kitty collections, and her pet hamster ZuZu and an overwhelming peace comes to my heart. She is the happiest child I have ever come across. Clearly, to her core, happy. She has her Daddy and her Mommy. Her life is stable with the most routine it's ever had. She is surrounded by love and discipline. Her family has goals that she is working to be a part of. She has responsibilities in her family. She is growing into such a beautiful, well rounded young girl that I am absolutely amazed at the transformation that has taken place over the past 18 months or so.
Today in church, the speaker was speaking of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. I was reminded and this time it was ingrained in my soul, that He did not just atone for our sins, but for our heartaches, disappointments, grief, worries, failures, sicknesses........any time our hearts felt hurt or discouragement - He atoned for those. He took on those feelings for us. HE is the only one that can truly ever understand exactly how we feel. It's such a personal miracle.
And knowing that Chloee is exactly where she needs to be. With the family that she is supposed to be with. Doing all the things a 5 year old girl should be doing. Losing teeth, getting ready for kindergarten, making friends, learning responsibility and rules. All of that makes my heart feel something completely indescribable.
No doubt in my mind, that life is a plan. Each of us have a purpose to fulfill and our job is to find it and fulfill it. All the circumstances in Chloee's life are part of her plan. Her Heavenly Father knows what is in store for her and prepares the way for it to happen.
When I thought of her today, and saw the pictures Karalee sent me, I felt peace. Yes, I have felt peace before about my children, but today was something a little different. Peace for Chloee. Peace knowing that she has a divine purpose and she is in the right place to be able to fulfill it.
I once was told of a dream someone had of Jill. She was in front of my house. She was about 25 years old and looked beautiful. Radiant. Healthy. She simply smiled and told this person to stick to the plan and everything would work out. She then turned and walked into my home.
Yes, there is a plan. For each of us.
Stick to the plan, and everything will work out.