Remember (click here) this post last year?
My (click here) idea of doing a tree?
Well, it's that time again and while I had it in the back of my mind all year, I have been sorta of pushing it aside. I hate commitment. I KNOW it takes a lot of time, energy and dedication. That kind of responsibility scares me. Inside, I was allowing doubt and lack of confidence to talk me into finding excuses to back out.
And then my cute Debbi (who I could never do it without) sat by me at dinner and we talked. Add in John who now is an experienced FOT'er and they both had me believing that maybe I really could pull off. I still couldn't bring myself to commit.
Yesterday, I had some time driving around to an appointment and I popped in the new CD from John's group Code Blue**. Track 4 is a cover of "In the arms of an angel" originally by Sarah McLachlan.
BOOM. You know how it hits ya? That moment of truth and then pretty soon ideas start flowing? Inspiration? Yeah that.
That particular song is one that was used by one of Jill's coworkers who put together a beautiful video just days after Jill had passed. That song always reminds me of her, and of struggles that I myself (and others) go through.
I had the idea last year of a tree involving suicide awareness, angels, mommies......something along that line. Now the feeling of "do the tree" was pounding in my heart as I listened to the song and.....remembered.
Within an hour, I was home, logged into my email and don't ya know- there is an email full of support and encouragement from Debbi. Done deal. Sealed. The final sign that I should pull the trigger, make the commitment and DO IT.
So there you have it. Festival of Trees 2012 - Aisle Q will have a large tree dedicated to Jill and suicide awareness.
Now I need your help. A LOT OF HELP.
First all, need a name and theme for the tree. In my head have been the constant idea of mommies, angels, hearts etc....... but I need a cute/clever name for the tree and then some solid ideas of ornaments, decorations, tree skirt and other items that can go with it. Things that I can procure through donations and will be eye catchers to sell.
Second, once that gets decided, I can start gathering items and donations to make it happen.
So there you have it.
My plea for help! Help with ideas to get the ball rolling......after that I'll appeal for help with donations.
And finally, if you are local and interested in helping, let me know - the more hands the merrier and it really will be an incredible experience. I know it. I have witnessed it in others, I have been there watching decoration day, I have read and heard their stories. It will never be forgotten.
PS - all funds go directly to Primary Childrens Medical Center and are tax deductible.
*PSS - Code Blue is working on a video and website - I'll be doing a blog post on them in the future you won't want to miss!
And this pic has nothing to do with the post but it's cute.
Chlo's first day at Kindergarten!