Wednesday's Wrandom Wrambling

Marines, jinxing and dishonesty.....and a whole lot of other crap wrattling around in my head.

It feels like a long time since I've just rambled.  Let me clarify, that I've just wrambled on my blog.

The past few weeks has been intense.  Huge family changes.  Huge life changes.  Lot's of support from all kinds of people.  Some hate from other's.  I guess you can say we've experienced the whole range of feelings and I am sure we will experience a whole lot more.

'dawg goes back to So.Cal next week.  I've been impressed with how kind the Marine's have been.  I hope that all this emergency leave doesn't come back to bite him and that he has to make it all back up.  If he does, it could be another year or more before he gets to come home again.  That would suck.  Rocks.

I have jinxed us. I did that great post about Sissy sleeping in her bed, and how smart her daddy was with his idea....blah  blah blah......yeah totally worked for a little while.  Not so much now.  She is afraid of being alone.  Plain and simple.  She hates going to bed alone.  She hates waking up alone.  She hates sleeping alone.  She is afraid.  And no matter how much we stress how safe she is, leave the door open, use a nightlight - you name it, we're doing it - no go my friends.  So for now, she lays down, closes her eyes while me or Splenda tells her some fabulous story involving her, us and something fun.  She drifts off.  At some point in the night, she wakes up - cries and wanders in with her pillow pet and prayer bear and needs to be snuggled.   I really don't even care.  When I was little, I was afraid EVERY SINGLE NIGHT.  Serio - I had nightmares every single night of my life until about the time my first child was born.  Some recurring nightmares, some new - but always scary dreams.  Due to my own Mom's health, we were not allowed in their bed to snuggle when we were afraid.  I think because of that I swore I would never turn my kids away.  So I didn't and I don't now.  They eventually grow up and stop needing you and all is well.

Lesson learned?  Be careful what you blog about - you could totally jinx it.

I have got to get back to the gym on a regular basis.  Seems like one thing or another gets in my way, but I have so much on the agenda this summer that if I don't get serious in my training, I won't be able to do any of it.  Stressful.  Besides, I need the endorphins bad. 

We've been watching the HBO series The Pacific.  I'll do a whole blog review about it when we are finished, but I have to say I am loving it.  Especially with my built in censor.  'dawg has already watched it, so when there is a scene that is simply there for gratuitous stimulation, he skips the chapter and we get right back to the violence and F-bombs.   The real Marine life.

Jordan and Jack have become best friends.  Had I known our life was going to get upended, I would have held off getting Jack when we did, but now that the housebreaking is getting under control, he is settling in as a member of our family quite nicely.  And Sissy loves him. 

Sunday, I was teaching a lesson about challenges and adversity in our lives to my Young Women.  I asked them to tell me what kinds of challenges they were facing. The first answer that came was "drama at school"

I had to smile only because, it seems that 'drama' never leaves.  As adults we are still susceptible to being sucked into drama and crap that drains the very life out of us.  In fact, I have been thinking about this a lot.  As I look back, every single relationship either in my own life or the lives of my friends or family, any relationship that has failed has had it's failure originate in dishonesty.  Half truths, gossip, wrong perceptions that get portrayed as truth or bald-face lies all lead to ruined relationships.  There is no way around that.

Lesson learned?  I can spot a dishonest person much quicker now, and am learning to keep my distance.  I am also MUCH more cognizant of how accurate my own speech needs to be.  I don't like my words misunderstood or misrepresented so the more accurate I am, the less chance there is for that. 

Discovering how cool NickJr is.  Really.  I had no idea that Blue's clues was actually educational.  Sure, Joe is a bit over the top - but hey, it beats that Caillou kid.

Guess I should go pull some rolls out to go with the roast in the oven.  Yeah, I said roast.  And it's not even Sunday!  Ssshhhh...don't let out the secret that I actually cooked a meal.  I don't want anyone to get any unrealistic or incorrect expectations!